In becoming more like Jesus, it's a long journey in the same direction. Let's support one another as we travel!
Monday, June 21, 2010
A Very Generous Father's Day Gift
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Thanksgiving Prayer
I want to thank you for what you have already done. I am not going to wait until I see results or receive rewards. I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until I feel better or things look better. I am not going to wait until the pain in my body disappears. I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until people say they are sorry or until they stop talking about me behind my back. I am not going to wait until my financial situation or the economy improves. I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until the children are asleep and the house is quiet. I am not going to wait until a different season in my life unfolds. I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until I understand every experience in my life that has caused me pain or grief. I am not going to wait until the journey gets easier or the challenges are removed. I am thanking you right now.
I am thanking you because I am alive. I am thanking you because I made it through the day's difficulties. I am thanking you because I have walked around the obstacles. I am thanking you because I have the ability and the opportunity to do more and do better. I'm thanking you, Heavenly Father, because you haven't given up on me. You are good and you are good all the time.
Thank you for all the good you've done for me. Amen
Monday, May 11, 2009
A Long Time Coming
This post has needed to be written for a long time now. I’ve started it a couple of times, only to erase it all because I just couldn’t find the words to finish it. I’ve gone over and over what to say and how to say it, and I haven’t sensed any divine revelation, so I’m just going to wing it here.
You see, God has begun a mighty change in me and I find that for every step forward in faith, I take two steps back with fear and insecurity. I am embarrassed to write this post, to some degree, because I have to share a message that God has been trying to smack into me for quite some time. Okay, just being honest here, it’s been years that He’s been trying to break through to me in this area.
A couple of months ago, unbeknownst to me, a friend and fellow staff wife got a little bug up her sleeve to have a surprise for me at our Women’s Retreat. Many of you wrote wonderful and beautiful cards to me and, embarrassingly, gave of your hard earned money towards a gift for me – me of all people!
The last day of the retreat, my friend, Tricia, called me up to the front. I had no idea as to why she was calling me up there, and she proceeded to say some things that I can’t quite remember. (When I am standing in front of a group of grown ups, I usually have a sort of “out of body” experience because I am so embarrassed and insecure to be there).
The gift of the cards was such a sweet and unexpected surprise, and I was touched that so many women would make the time to write me a card. I was full to over-flowing with the love that I felt in the gift of those cards.
But then……Tricia proceeded to say something that my simple mind didn’t have a category for, and I didn’t even understand what she was saying at first. She told me that the women, along with their cards, had given money, towards a gift for me.
I simply cannot find the words to say how totally embarrassed I was that anyone would give in these difficult financial times towards a gift for me. I certainly haven’t “earned” it, I certainly don’t “deserve” it, and I certainly can’t believe it. I must have looked so silly in that moment because I truly did not understand what Tricia was trying to tell me.
Long story not so short, Tricia told me that there had been enough money to buy the club chairs that we had picked out when we had bought our sofa two years ago! I KNOW! What is up with that?
Well, after mumbling something (probably not at all intelligible), I headed back to my seat with the treasured box of cards in my hands. As I sat down, I was engulfed in the hugs of the two women sitting on either side of me, and in that moment…….something broke. I felt a love wash over me like a tidal wave and I “heard” the voice of the Lord speaking straight to the depths of my soul.
Now, there have been two times in my life that I clearly sensed God speaking straight to my heart in a way that was all but audible. In both of those times, I can tell you word-for-word what God spoke to my spirit because it was so vivid, real, and true. This time was no different; I remember word-for-word (it’s all but etched in my heart) what God said to me.
I’m a little hesitant to share what I heard because, well, I’m sure God speaks to you all in grand and eloquent ways, and me? Not so much.
Anyway, as I sat enveloped in the hugs of those two women and overwhelmed with the love that those cards represented, as clearly as anything, I heard these words, “Gena, it’s time to put your big girl panties on and step over all those danged insecurities you have hidden behind for so long.”
Yep. That’s it. That’s what I heard. To be fair, I also heard, “You can do all I’ve called you to do, and you can trust in this love.”
God gave me no grand discourse on His immutability, or why He sent his son, Jesus Christ, as propitiation for my sin, or His transcendent nature. Nope. None of that; just “Put your big girl panties on.”
I don’t mean to be flippant at all about the reality of the Lord speaking to me. I really don’t, but I simply can’t rephrase what I heard because that’s what I heard.
And you know how God has to say some things over and over for us to get it? Well, believe it or not, I recently attended a one-day conference with two speakers, and both, BOTH, women used that exact same phrase at one point during the day in their talks. I mean, what are the odds of that?
Well, those words have come back to me over and over again since the retreat and I continue to pray that I can truly accept what He told me. I desire to stay on the other side of my “danged” insecurities that I all to often willingly and fearfully hide behind. I want to trust in the love of those God has so graciously and wonderfully placed in my life. And, I want to feel free to release the deep, honest-to-goodness love that I have for others in our church.
Anyway, as I came home from the retreat to read all of those sweet and heartfelt cards, I was again amazed at the gifts God has given me in the women of our church. I will always keep that box of cards, and I will reread them every so often (especially on days when I wonder if I can do anything right!). I don’t deserve the love that was expressed in those cards, but you all gave it anyway. Do you even know how humbling that is?
And on top of that most precious gift, you all gave me some chairs. CHAIRS! I couldn’t believe it, and guess what? They are here! You all need to come over to see them and rest your little hienies in them! I like them just as much as I did two years ago; they match our sofa so well! And when I sit in them, I am amazed at the gift of love that they represent to me.
Yes, it took me until the chairs got here to post this because I’ve been embarrassed at your overly gracious and generous gift. I mean, how do you accept something like that? And yet, I am afraid that my inability to say thank you earlier might have been seen as being ungrateful. That wasn’t it at all! In fact, it was just the opposite; I was so grateful for the undeserved gift that I found it hard to accept. Why you all would bless me that way, I don’t know, but I want to let you know how very much I appreciate the gift and the love in which it was given.
So there you have it, a long overdue and heartfelt THANK YOU to you all who have dared to love me and bless me. I can only pray that I will be faithful with those gifts and that I will turn around and pour those gifts out to others. I love you and thank you with all that I am.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Speechless
Sunday, February 22, 2009
23 Years and Counting
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
The Red House - Part Three
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
The Red House
Anyway, I took a lot of pictures, but none of them capture the coziness and peace that we experienced being there. Stop back by here because I will share some more photos over the next few days.
The house we stayed in is called, "The Red House." Aptly named, don't you agree?
We'll start with the fresh flowers that were placed throughout the home. This first picture is what was directly in front of us when we walked through the door.
And I forgot to take a picture of the flowers in the center of the farmhouse dining table that had a package of cookies and a welcome card beside it. So, so thoughtful. We knew we were in for a special couple of days. Next up? You'll have to come back to find out.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Block Party
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Play Day in Monterey
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Her Graduation/Our Education
Can it really be that our sweet Hannie is finished with her high school years?
We watched last night as our oldest daughter entered the full auditorium to the familiar pomp and circumstance tune played by the underclassmen. She walked across the stage, tall and beautiful, to receive her CSF lifetime member award, a Presidential Scholar award, and her diploma. It was rather surreal, to be honest with you. we've been to many a graduation, but for our own offspring? Unbelievable!
Yesterday, while pondering the fact that she would be graduating in a few hours, I had a flashback seeing four-month-old little Hannah swaddled in the middle of several sheets, placed in a laundry basket. It was a clear as day; I had placed her there because she was too small to sit up on her own, and I needed to fold the just-dried laundry. I ended up taking a picture of that moment because she was just so darn cute, and that picture is what popped into my mind yesterday. It can't really have been nearly eighteen years ago, could it?
In those early days of motherhood, in the quiet moments, I experienced a type of joy that I had not known was possible. This beautiful little girl was the gift from God that Dave and I had been praying for for years. Hannah has been teaching me from the moment she took her first breath, poor thing. She was chosen by God to be the oldest, and she's had a lot of training to do with her Dad and me. (Insert smiley face here!)
Our education as parents continues. In watching/experiencing Hannah's graduation from high school, we are learning to trust that the Lord is speaking to our daughter, revealing His will for her. We are learning to let go, all the while letting Hannah know we are here when she needs us. We are learning to trust her judgment. Most of all, last night we realized we are learning that it all goes so quickly.
From the moment Hannah was born, when we first heard the admonition that we must value each moment because it all goes so quickly, we have tried to do just that. We made a conscious effort to savor each day/moment with Hannah and our other children, but even so, the time slips through our fingers. It spills away in the dailyness of phone calls, errands, school projects, special moments, household chores, appointments, sickness, and of course, just being. And all of a sudden, we're standing on the precipice of life after high school for our daughter, and it seems that we arrived here much too soon.
So, dear Hannie, we will cherish anew our moments with you, and we celebrate the beautiful and godly woman you are becoming. Congratulations! You've worked hard and you've excelled in your studies, but for your future, our counsel is not to work harder or even to work smarter. Our prayer is that you will abide in Christ. Guided by the Holy Spirit, you can bear fruit that lasts for eternity. We have no doubt that you will fulfill His purposes for you as you continue to follow Him and His will for your life. Dream big, sweetie! We love you, and we're proud of you.
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Bibles and Burlap
I arrived home a couple of hours ago from our church's women's retreat. I had a wonderful time, and I felt so absolutely blessed by the women who attended. I was blessed by the women who were able to ride up (and back) with me, the women who were in my cabin (Go Cabin 6!), the other women who attended, and by the speaker. I met some incredible women that I had not previously had the privilege to knowing, and I caught up with some others that I am not able to visit with very often. I was blown away by the love and acceptance I felt between us all. I love it when God shows up and speaks to us about things we weren't even aware that we needed to address. He is so good! Life is not easy and hurts are many and deep. As I looked around the meeting room, I was honored to sit in the presence of so many courageous and beautiful women. I am so proud to know that they are a part of "my" church family and that they are walking the hard road of surrender and obedience. You all ROCK, and I am praying that you all continue to allow God to pour His spirit on you and through you. I specifically wish you could see how beautiful you are! I was humbled, challenged, inspired, and convicted through your stories and testimonies.

I heard there were a couple of midnight (or perhaps a little later) expeditions involving flashlights and burlap bags. There may even be an incriminating picture or two floating around. Just know that I pray for all of you delinquent souls ;-), and I am here to provide a model for you to follow.
Let's remember all that God spoke to us, and let's live out the Love that He poured over us. Love to you all!
Monday, December 31, 2007
Festive Fridays - Lessons Learned




First of all, I must say a big thank you to my wonderful husband, Dave, for jumping on board with this idea. He and I work so well together, and I love when we are able to tackle something new like this as a team. One idea will springboard into another as we talk about what we can do. As you may have noticed, he is a great "up front" person, and I do quite well in the background making sure things are done and flowing smoothly. I was grateful for his ability to play the guitar and lead our Christmas carol singing time. I am also thankful that Dave is so open with our resources as this venture did cost us in finances, times, and our home. Dave also jumped in and helped with crafts, games, and story reading.
I am also thankful to my two older children, Hannah and Eric, for their willingness to give of their time to help with anything that needed doing. They organized games, picked up after craft time, read stories, helped with snacks, and generally, just did whatever needed to be done.
That being said, here are a couple of things I learned during Festive Fridays:
1) I needed better resources for tying it all together. It would have been nice to have the resources all in one place, but as it was, I was picking and choosing stories, games, scripture, crafts, snacks, etc... from a wide variety of sources. It all worked out great, but I have a greater appreciation for good curriculum! :-) The good news is that now I have my own curriculum of sorts to draw from for next year.
2) When it's raining outside, 18 people in my house playing a relay game is a tad too many! :-)
3) In reference to item #2, always check the weather forecast!
4) When it comes to crafts with children of various ages and abilities, easier is definitely better. :0 Also, any craft involving glue should not be done on my dining room table!
5) Speaking of crafts, using food products (or candy) in the creation of a craft calls for having extras on hand just for eating. We made advent calendars using Hershey's Kisses our first Friday together, and I overestimated a young child's ability to understand delayed gratification! Ha!
7) I think we could have done more to focus on reaching out to others. We did collect money towards feeding hungry children, but I didn't want the children to feel pressured to give towards that as our time together was our ministry to them. However, I do think that the children would participate more fully and compassionately if we were able to help another neighbor with a project, gift, food, or money.
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Festive Fridays
We planned each Friday around a different theme, creating games and crafts around that theme. We also read a book having to do with the theme for the day, and we sang Christmas carols, practicing for the last Friday when we would go caroling at the homes of some of our older neighbors. (I called the neighbors first, asking if it would be okay for us to come by. They were thrilled to have the kids come by to carol, many having fond memories of caroling themselves). The children also made gifts for their parents that we wrapped the last day in hand-decorated gift bags.
We had a blast as we built some new friendships, blessed some neighbors with carols and a gift, raised money to feed hungry children, made crafts, shared the real meaning of CHRISTmas, played some outrageous games, and basically just laughed and celebrated the season with our neighbors.
Was it a busy time? Yes! Did it get hectic at times? Yes! Did the kids have fun? Yes! Were we glad we did it? Yes! Will we do it again next year? YES! We did, however, learn a few things that we will do differently next time, and I'll be back tomorrow with lessons learned.
For now, here are a few pictures from two of our times together. Enjoy!


*Pic Removed per K's request.
*Pic Removed per K's request.
*Pic Removed per K's request.



Friday, December 14, 2007
Behold the Lamb of God

I was blessed beyond measure tonight and felt like I was given a few holy moments to wonder anew at the story of Christ's birth. We mostly think of the birth of Christ and the events surrounding it in such a sanitized way, but the reality of these events, the holy and the raw, were beautifully portrayed this evening in this wonderful event put on by many talented and gifted individuals from our church. It was simply wonderful, and you must make plans to attend one of the last two performances (Sat. 12/15 at 7:00 PM, or Sun. 12/16 at 6:00 PM).
I sat praising God that He has given such wonderful talents to people I am privileged to be walking on this journey with. Everything I experienced tonight was a gift to me. I could never have designed or built the set; I would not be able to paint the beautiful canvases; I am unable to play any of the instruments that were used tonight; I am definitely not someone others would want to hear sing; I am not able to run a sound board or handle the audio/visual aspects of a production, BUT my great God has placed people around me that have used their abilities and gifts to bless me! It's okay that I can't do any of those things, but my life would be so much emptier if these individuals did not use their gifts to serve the Lord and the rest of us. The people that were involved in the production of "Behold the Lamb of God" sacrificed many hours and evenings to enable me to catch a new glimpse at the wonder of the birth of Christ.
Thank you to all of you that put such effort and time in to providing such a wonderful experience for the rest of our family at New Life. You used your gifts for His glory tonight, and you were a blessing to me.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Family Fun Sunday Update
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Hugo is here!
Thursday, October 4, 2007
Women of Faith
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
Today, I traveled down to Madera Ranchos/Fresno to vist with an old friend from high school. Angela was a foreign exchange student during my senior year, and we made many (often crazy) memories together. She is from Australia, so I haven't seen her in years, but she happened to be here visiting her former host-family that now lives in the Madera Ranchos. We had a great time catching up over dinner at Chevy's and strolling the mall, but I really had to work hard to catch everything she was saying; her accent is strong enough that I sometimes had to ask her to repeat herself! Sorry Ang, you know it's true! :-) We were able to spend about five hours together, and we chatted the entire time. Amazingly enough, she has four children the ages of my four children, and we both have sons named Peter. When two moms each with four children get together, there is never a shortage of things to talk about! I found it interesting to hear what life is like for her in Australia, and the issues she and her children face compared to the issues I face with my children here in the States.
She remembered things I had long forgotten, and brought up names/situations that I'd tucked away in the far recesses of my mind. Some of the memories were great ones, and others were ones I was glad to have put aside. Her recollections reminded me that I am not the same person I was in high school, and that is only because of the healing and saving power of Jesus Christ in my life. I always tell people that it's a good thing Dave and I didn't meet in high school because he would have never dated me (and I probably wouldn't have dated him). Dave and I would have moved in completely different circles, and we wouldn't have crossed paths very often in a positive way.
Anyway, I noticed that Angela seemed uncomfortable around me at first, and I thought it was simply because we hadn't seen each other in such a long time, but then she said she didn't know what to talk to me about because she's never been friends with a minister or his wife. She asked about our church and our lives, and then she said, "I could never be perfect enough to be a minister's wife." I just had to laugh, and I told her to join the club because I'm not perfect enough either. And guess what? Neither my husband nor my children are perfect enough; we're all just one big perfectly imperfect mess! :-)
I think Angela's view of, and experience with, Christianity led her to believe that I would be judgmental or "Holier than Thou" and somehow "different." Well, I am different because I have met God and been freed from my sin and bondage, but the God I have met is a gracious God who respects, values, and LOVES people. I pray that I show those same qualities to those I am in relationship with, and I pray that Angela saw that in me tonight because that is the truth of how I feel about her.
Friday, August 3, 2007
Pictures from Colorado
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Precious moments (Not the figurines! :)
With four children, it is very hard to find one-on-one time with each of them. I am also not as conscious of remembering to plan those times as I'd like to be. However, I am grateful that God graciously grants me those times every once in a while. I recognize those moments as the gift that they are; those times are truly precious moments.
